trying not to think about…
I’m trying not to think about the fact that my representation has my latest draft printed out and are probably reading it today and tomorrow. I’m trying not to think about what a debacle my new spec was with them. I’m trying not to think about the fact that if they do like it then it goes out to studios and production companies and people will be saying yes or no to this script I’ve spent so long on. I’m trying not to think about what I’ll do if they say yes. Or if they say no. I’m trying not to think about things too positively or too negatively.
I’m failing.
What are you trying not to think about?
March 17th, 2009 in
reflection | tags: finances, frustrating, reflection, representation, screenwriting, struggle
I’m trying not to think about whether or not I’ll have a job next month….and if I do have a job, will it look and feel like the one I have now. I’m trying not to think about if the job that I might have will be at a reduced pay with reduced benefits
I’m trying not to think about the fact that my daycare just cut paid holiday’s and possibly will be cutting pay causing all the great teachers that positively influence my kids will be looking for new jobs.
I’m trying not to think about the general topic you’re trying not to think about…and praying (and being certain when I pray) that you will experience stunning success in this field, no matter what may happen from day to day!
Trying not to think about what life would look like if I can’t pay all my bills next month…
I’m trying not to think about the time I wasted in high school and college, when I had ALL the time in the world to read, study film, and learn piano–particularly since now I am fighting for time to do these things.
Trying not to think about having to go back to work and leave Drew on his birthday…
Hey all! I can pay my bills!
Yes, Jonathan, that’s awesome! It’s a St patty’s day miracle!!
I’m trying not think about spending the day with 23 little devils tomorrow…
i’m trying not to think about how i need to take the praxis soon which means studying math aka death!
I am trying not to think about the very real possibility that the school I have worked at for over 20 years and has served the community for 35 years may have to close with the end of this school year. I am trying not to think about the 5 teachers who definitely will not have a job with us in the fall, should our school miraculously remain in operation, and the other 2 people whose hours have been reduced. I am trying not to think about the one teacher who, in the beginning of this school year lost her husband, and at the end of this school year will lose her job. I am trying not to think about the fact that most of the people who lost their jobs are over 50. I am trying not to think of the heartbreaking decision our principal and the school board had to make in their attempts to keep us open so we can continue to share the love of Christ, as well as teach academic subjects with the community we have served for so long. I am trying not to think about how hard it will be to go back to work in the fall (should the school remain open), even though I am so grateful for my job, because it has never just been a job and these people are like family. I am trying not to think about the lay-offs my husband’s company has made and will continue to make. I am trying not to think about the possibility (however remote) that he could be one of those laid off. I am trying not to think about my son and daughter-in-law separating as I write this. I am trying not to think about how heartbroken my daughter-in-law is, and how much my granddaughter will miss her daddy. I am trying not to think how much my son will eventually miss his daughter, once he stops thinking about just himself. I am trying not to think how hard it is going to be for all of them…and us. I am trying not to think about what it may take before my son gets straightened out and grows up. I am trying not to think about the pain he must be in to cause all of us so much pain for so long. I am trying not to think if what I have done/not done, said/not said made things worse. I am trying not to think about how hard it is to write this…not because I am trying to put on some kind of front, like I have it all together, but because this has been going on for so long and I just wish I had good news to report for a change. Basically, I am trying not to think…but I am not doing a very good job.
Oh Kathie, I’m so sorry about all the things going on… I’ll pray for you.
Kathie–I am so so sorry to hear about all of this; how painful about your son and daughter-in-law, especially. And of course, your school…I will pray for you…
Thanks so much, Jase and Jess. I appreciate your prayers, and your concern.
I am late in commenting but I am trying not to think about the deep places that have heartache. I am trying not to think about who be living in my house in the next year if it isn’t me and my family. I am trying not to think about how different thing will be if the economy doesn’t swing back. I am trying not to think about my friends that live too far away to visit with when a good friend is needed most…
Guy, apparently we should start a “trying not to think about” club. Who’s up for it?
I kept on wondering who “Guy” was and why you were referring to him when he didn’t even leave you one comment!
I got it now, though…just took me a minute, is all…
Oh man!! guys not guy.